Cutting Madness

As I was sitting here thinking about how to get my haircut, I found a hott picture on the internet of a sassy angle bob hairdo. It was very short and although I liked the style I was afraid of cutting my hair that short.

Then I realized, It is only hair and it will grow back eventually.

Life is like a haircut.

Sometimes we walk around so afraid to try new things or step outside the box that we miss really great new adventures; and for what?
We are afraid of the potential outcome, not the realistic outcome.
Maybe someone won't approve or will shun us because we are doing something different, but who cares? Are we really so conceited that we believe that we are the last thought on everyone else's mind when they lay their head on their pillow at night..wrong.
Fact is, they probably do not even think twice about what you do except for when it infringes upon what they want to do.
Everyone needs to follow their own desires because at the end of this life you are going to be the only one who answers for your actions. And wouldn't you rather say that you lived life to the fullest instead of lived your life for others?
I think we should all forget what we think others will say and explore new adventures, push the envelope and step out and do something new. You never know, you might actually lose your inhibitions and have fun just for one single moment in time.

So, I believe I will get my hair done in that short sassy do that I found; after all, it is just hair.

Freezing Dreams

Why is it that the only day I do not bring my sweater to work is the one day that it is freezing cold in here?

My hands are frozen stiff as I am trying to type on the keyboard.

I think days like this remind me how I always need to be prepared for change in my life.

The moment I go "without my sweater" always seems to be the times when life's changes catch me off-guard. I am usually always looking forward to constant change in any way even if it is as obscure as my plans being cancelled at the last minute, but I wasn't ready today.

I believe too many people get stuck in the same old place for far too long, and are complacent with just existing where they are. I cannot live that way.
Sometimes complacency can turn into stagnation and that is definately what I do not want.

Life is too short to be settling into a rut. I think we should all live moment to moment so we can look back and say "Wow! I had a great run through this journey of life,+ constantly discovering new paths of who I truly am."

So tomorrow, I am going to bring my sweater.

Random Genius

Sometimes your mind has a mind of its own.
It can randomly bring thoughts up that you wonder, "Where did that come from."

I know my thoughts can run very fast at times. So fast that I can barely keep up.
I write things down a lot due to this happening. I can get a life's epiphany while I am in the checkout line at a grocery store or just walking to the mailbox.

I believe it is during these random, very inconvenient times that I actually get my best and clearest ideas or goals.

I guess it just goes to show that the unplanned times of your life can actually be the most life altering; probably because you are not micromanaging things. Your thoughts have a chance to just come to you, for no reason, without trying.

So I say: "Welcome, you random thoughts, you...no matter how fast you may come to me."

Wondering

I wonder why some people go out of their way to make some people's lives miserable?

I guess this has been going on since the dawn of time, but when it hits close to home then you really start to figure this age old question out.
Are some people so severely unhappy that they really want to sabotage others? Yes, I believe some are.
Life would be so much easier if all the severely unhappy people would get on prozac and calm down.
Maybe life is supposed to be full of people who constantly challenge your own happiness from day to day. It definately doesn't leave any moments time to get nice and dull but allows each person to make a choice about how they will react to that stimulus. (Should I snap their head off or just plaster a smirk to my face and secretly know that they will never be as happy as I am with their life and go on?)

Dreary Days

Have you ever been stuck in a catch 22 and didn't know what to do?

Well, I have too.
The saying goes, "Danmed if you do and damned if you don't."
Well I've decided to be damned if I do.
My thoughts about it is, that if you are going to be damned either way why not take action.

Silence gets us nowhere.

I just want to be myself and be happy..and sometimes being happy means being damned by others, but poo on them.
They do not have to walk in your shoes and go to sleep thinking about the things you've done that day.

If i'm going to be damned than it is going to be because I actually did something.

Trading Our Disappointment

Disappointment can be seen as a negative when it comes to getting let down by someone you care about. I try to find the positive when I get let down.

I have had many disappointments in people who were "friends" and family but really when I reflected upon that relationship..I was the one doing all the work.
Aren't relationships supposed to be 100% and 100%?
I have realized that those relationships I have ever had with people never worked when I was the only one keeping it alive.
Friendships are work....lots of work.
If you do not invest into keeping close to someone then they will fail..eventually.
I think that sometimes you have to get rid of the "friends" that disappoint you. The stagnant relationships wear you out if you keep them around and you are really only kidding yourself anyway.
Those who care about you will not only put 90% into your relationship but will always give you thier best...or more.

That is my moto in being a good friend....give all or go home alone!

The Big Day

Today is the day that I have been dreaming about for five years...graduating college.

Tears, sweat and lots of tylenol are only a few words that describe the experience that comes along with getting my education.
I no longer have to worry about keeping my GPA at a 3.8 or about writing 5,000 page research papers...that is until grad school.
To know that I have accomplished one of the greatest tasks of young-adulthood lets me know that I can take on any challenge in life.
I have had my supporters and my haters throughout my years...but I have overcome all and will proudly skip across the stage tonight and wave my diploma holder in the air...and shake my booty!
I have done it!

Being Single

Being a recent college graduate, I never thought I would still be single.
Everyone has a preconceived notion of where they will be in the next five years or so and mine never come out quite the way I picture.
Female singleness is a thing that is envied by many married women and being married is envied by most single women.
Why do we always want the status different from our own?
I will not say that I do not want a relationship, because on some nights it would be nice to have a cuddle buddy..but I am happy with my "freedom."
I can do what I want without asking for permission...girls night is a must..and it is fun to flirt every now and then.
Yes, I am quite happy with how my life is right now even though if you would have ask me five years ago where I would be; I would have said engaged or married.
I will continue to be single until a great man (not man-child) hits me in the face with a two-by-four and says: "I like you, wanna go out?"

Cleaning

You know, cleaning is really just moving stuff around so that it appears to be clean when really it is not.

Like when you are going to have unexpected company..you shove magazines under coffee tables and put miscelaneous items in little nooks and crannies so others won't see.
The items are not in view so it appears to be clean when really the mess is still there.

I guess as long as it makes us feel like we have accomplished something we can call our rearranging anything we want.

I know I will continue to do that because it just makes me feel better!

Fashion Trouble

I like the skinny jeans but they are not really meant for a curvy girl...so wear them and be brave or not?

That seems to be the thought that runs through my head as I browse the shops that I walk into in the mall.
Trying to find the style that is stylish but fits for you is a hard task as fashion trends come and go as fast as they do.
Yesterday the sundresses and mini shorts were in and now the bright 80s colors are in with the big plastic sunglasses and leggings.
I guess finding a good balance is all we can really do when it comes to finding our own style.

I will wear the skinny jeans....but with a silky ruffle top and some heels.

Thoughts about Tomorrow

Graduating college, getting married or moving away for the first time can freak a person out with the changes that come along with them. As one chapter comes to an end in our lives we tend to start looking back at the good times we had instead of looking at the good times ahead.

It is only the different chapters in our lives that make us a fulfilled person in the end. We do not want to reach the end and only have blank pages, but pages filled with scribbles of what can be called our lives.